When I look back at high school,
I realize I was lucky enough to embrace
The terms used when I was bullied-
Amazon woman. Band nerd. Art geek.
Clumsy. Fat. Goody-two-shoes. Jesus-Freak.
I was lucky enough that most of those
Words were just words to me then,
Many of which have changed these
10 years later.
But the one thing I will never forgive
Was the time I didn’t stop them
From teasing a boy in class.
He gave a speech, and cracked his voice,
The sweat dropped down,
His checks velvet wine-
I saw the hurt they caused
And I did not stand and tell him
They were only using little words,
And ten years later they would mean
Far, far less than they do now…
I can forgive bullies their childish errors,
But I cannot forgive myself mine.